It's been a long, difficult decision, and we haven't made it official yet, but we are planning to pull out of our China adoption process. Amazingly, the CCAA has reached May 18, 2006 in log-in-dates, which is just over a month away from our LID. I suspect that if we stayed in the program, we'd be matched with a child in another 6 months or so, which means we'd be traveling to pick up our third child within the next year. Considering we began this process in January '06 that now feels really soon, and ironically this is the main reason we're pulling out. It just doesn't feel like the best thing for our kids, who will only be 3 and 2 next year. Adding a 1-yr-old to the mix feels incredibly overwhelming. I imagined having a big family, and when Caleb and Evan were born, we still intended to add a third. But what feels right these days - and what feels most sane - is to see our family as complete. I want to be a good mom. I work at it every day. I don't know...
This blog was born in 2006 when my husband and I began our journey to adopt. After the program stalled, we decided on a different path to parenthood. In March '08, we began fostering our infant son, and our daughter was conceived shortly thereafter. She was born in Feb '09, 2 weeks before our son turned 1, and we finalized his adoption that Oct. Life was busy with 2 tiny tots, and I stopped writing, but I always thought I'd get back to it. Listen To Your Mother 2017 was that jumping off point.